Just Breathe

Life can sometimes just break you down and then there are all those pieces that you have to pick up and put back together. Lately that is what has been going on with me.

After our little friend passed away, life seemed to come to a bit of a standstill. He died on the Friday of my father-in-law's rehearsal and dinner. We were so rushed that day. I remember just running around trying to get everything done, picking Kellen up from school, rushing to get her ready to go and then leaving to pick Kyle up from work so that we could beat the Hartford and Waterbury traffic to get there on time. By the time we got home that night it was after 11:30 and I went online and saw that he died that morning. Wham! My heart just stopped and that rush of life and all the things I was so stressed about seemed so silly.

I am trying really hard to do only the things that matter. I got pretty good at saying no after Riley was born, but now I am going to be a pro. No longer am I going to waste time doing "stuff" that takes me away from the things that matter the most to me. I am determined to make sure that we LIVE life while we have it. I want to listen to what the girls are saying instead of just hearing them. I want to play with them instead of having them go play. I know that this won't always be realistic because there is always something going on, but I am making a promise to my girls that I will do my best. Its hard to even remember what life was like before they were born and I certainly can't imagine it without them.

This Mother's Day, I am going to truly appreciate the three best gifts I was ever given.